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June 10th, 2009

09:46 pm - Writer's Block: Last Meal In-n-Out burgers. Oh yeah! Two double doubles an order of fries and a chocolate shake. Current Mood: satisfied Tags: writer's block

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May 6th, 2008

10:19 pm - look at me I'm a hippy! Man am I tired. Mowed the lawn of our "flip" house. with a reel mower. Oi, pushing that through thick grass (that I was dumb enough to have fertilized a while back thinking it wasn't doing well enough (organic fertilizer)) is quite a challenge. I like it, no gas fumes, no hot wind and projectile rocks. On the other hand the fact that it jams up if there happens to be a twig in the way is quite frustrating. On flipping houses. Not sure I'd do it again. The worry I won't be able to make back what I put into it is always at the back of the mind. I am told I can rent it out for about 100 more a month than all my payments on the thing, so if I can actually get that it will still be a while before I make back the upgrade and down payment costs. But the lawn is looking good, the landscaping I am working on slowly but surely. I planted 3 raspberry bushes, and have 3 rose bushes to plant, and a ton of mulch to put down. (I mean ton as in a lot, not a literal ton) I am not really sold on the whole man made global warming thing, but I do like the I never have to pay for gas as it climbs higher and higher thing. I wish I'd been able to find one made in the US at the stores here, but alas it was not to be. I see them online now that I sit here, but that lawn needed mowing now, not in a week when the thing gets here. I did buy American Wheat though, so I'll be in homemade bread and pasta for quite some time. Ok I rambled. I'm done. I'm ok. I love my job. Current Mood: chipper Current Music: CSI Miami is on in the other room.

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January 25th, 2008

10:44 pm - No it's a match, but it shows you were thinking a lot of little things went well today.. To be more precise it's more like a lot of things gave positive vibes of becoming really good. So it's not like I got a check for a million dollars, but more like I was told that a rich friend of mine is thinking very strongly about writing me a check. I saw "Meet the Spartans". It had some funny moments and a lot of "that's just wrong" moments, but not really all that good overall. It was funny enough to entertain, but if I never see it again I shan't be in any way upset. I plan to watch untraceable even if it has a lot of computer stuff in it. I often find movies with such a large percentage of computer oriented content to be hard to watch. The suspension of disbelief is difficult. Like the last Die Hard movie. Oi. I had some Mia pizza for dinner. I like it. Not as much as normal. I am a fan of lots of sauce and the Mia just doesn't seem to have very much. Current Mood: full

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January 9th, 2008

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June 2nd, 2006

10:46 am - Stolen from Nea852 Which File Extension are You?

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May 24th, 2006

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May 4th, 2006

07:00 pm - I was nudged It seems it has been eleven weeks since I last took the time to regale you all with stories of my life. I know you all have been waiting with your breaths held for an update, so feel free to breathe again. I lead a fairly normal boring life so this shall be short. (and there was much rejoicing) The job goes well, we are getting a chance to play with .Net 2.0. Some people are convinced it will miraculously make programming so easy that even people that have never used it before can whip out full enterprise grade applications in a matter of a few drag and drops. I have tried and tried to show the light but to no avail. That's ok I guess it'll do me good to put the 2.0 next to the 1.1 on the old resumé Got a raise. That made me happy until I thought about the conversation and realized I probably could have played hardball and gotten a good $5 more than I did. Updated my tax status on the W-4 so they deduct like I am married with a rugrat. That's a lot of extra weekly dough. Why? Don't I like huge refunds at the end of the year? Found money, right? Assisted savings, no? Well sure, if the IRS doesn't take that chance to screw with you and complain about your 1999 return. They had 7 years to complain, but they didn't until they owed me a huge chunk of change. They are politely and oh so generously offering to hold on to the refund until I clear it up. That way, they say, they can just deduct anything I owe (ha, they owed me) and save me the hassle of writing a check. How freaking nice of them. I think we may finally have gotten a babysitter. After a year and many months of asking her to pick one she liked I guess it was time for me to look. hehe. They local Cooperative extension is leasing garden plots (20x20) and I got two of them. ($10 apiece for the whole season) Woot, there is going to be some good old fashioned gardening going on here. I already have the seedlings started in these cute little peat starters. Also at home I have planters and pots containing onions, leeks, potatoes, and strawberries. Rachel is even trying her hand at roses. One is doing well, the other never really came to life. Dang I wish I kept the receipt, those things had a nice generous guarantee. The baby is still making my wife fat. We had an ultrasound a few weeks back, still no clue on gender. It was nice to see only one head, and two arms and legs. I have to say, ultrasounds are quite freaky. It's eerie seeing all the bones in the spine and ribcage all at once. It made the baby look like a skeleton. Some of the pics make the head look just like that of an alien. I am about 100% sure (give or take 0%) that I don't wish to stay in New York for good. I want to be a land owner and a conservative. Both of which are very frustrating things to be in this state. Not sure where that's not true. Dang reckless spending all over the place. oi. Just not sure where I DO want to be. Let's see, I am almost done making a bed for Matthew. It's been a long time coming (2 months part time) but I have enjoyed it as my hobby. I have a few more slots to chisel out and I'll be done. The way it is now probably would be good enough for a while, but I want this thing to be around when he's at college boink some co-ed. So it needs to be good and sturdy. I joined a CSA (hippy) and I think it'll be fun. In theory I will get a bushel of vegetables and fruits each week from May 15 though mid October. I also get a chance to see how real farmers grow vegetables. Maybe I will learn stuff early enough to use it in my garden plots. (I don't mean to be rude, but the CSA had many people that surely must be getting all the fiber they could want, because for the entire hour I was there I was treated to a constant barrage of foul aromas. Just when one person ran out there was more from someone else. How nice) That's pretty much all I have thought up thus far. So until next time... Inhale big..... and hold it. :) Current Location: home Current Mood: happy Current Music: Matthew makes some funny noises he does

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February 11th, 2006

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February 8th, 2006

12:43 pm - Feeling better So they say there are 5 stages to grief. 1. Denial and Isolation. Spent the whole first day (until I actually saw the evidence with my own eyes, pretending she wasn't calling just because she thought I was sleeping in. 2. Anger. Wasn't exactly his biggest fan to be sure. 3. Bargaining. Boy how I bargained, Begged pleaded. Made myself look so needy it was pathetic. I thought I'd learned not to do that last time I did it a few years back. No one likes a weak clingy man. 4. Depression. Don't I know it. No eating, drinking, sleeping. 5. Acceptance. Last night I finally worked my way through to 5, and now I feel much better. That isn't to say I am happy, no I am still very sad, lonely, and still miss them both, but I have realized I have done all I can do, and that nothing else I do will do anything. So there is no point. Once I realized that, boom I started feeling better right away. I ate my first real meal in 4 days, not just enough to keep me from feeling woozy, started drinking water again at levels that will actually keep me hydrated, not just to keep my mouth and throat wet enough to stop the coughing. and today my intestines resumed functioning for the first time in 5 days. I got a fairly good nights sleep (nearly 8 hours). and have managed to get to work on time the last two days in a row (yesterday I had to in order to get to a meeting, but today was just because I wanted to) I've decided I need to move on. Whether she was influenced or not doesn't matter. It was her choice and I am going to deal with it and do what needs to be done. Wallowing does nothing. This again doesn't mean I don't care, but I finally realized no matter how much I care, whether I neglect myself till I end up in a hospital nothing will be different, so might as well not. Anyway, I got a bunch of road salt on my work shoes this weekend and didn't clean it off until today. The leather is pretty nasty now where the salt was. So new shoes for me. I also will be getting some more pants, a few shirts, new socks (dangit, the floor's loose nails just ripped my socks all up. Nail them down I often did, but they keep popping up, and we didn't find them till a sock got ripped) I am thinking I am going to get a haircut, maybe loose the beard (it's itchy and has no admirers anymore) maybe take this opportunity to do some traveling. I have been meaning to visit my family out west via Las Vegas. I think now is the time. Keeps me away from an empty house and occupied. I am off to go grab some noodles and get to my after lunch meeting. Thanks to you all. I am good to go now. I am glad to have friends like you guys. Current Mood: accepting Current Music: Talk Radio

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February 3rd, 2006

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January 30th, 2006

08:48 pm - Hi Brad That's right, I see you seeing me. Gives me the shivers it does. Just a quick update so that I can say I did it. Great success with the red beans and rice... except that it really is more of a red beans/tofu/sausage/red bell pepper/green onion/tomato/shrimp/cumin/misc spice thing. I did make (for another dish) the perfect bbq sauce. Now I wish I knew how much of each ingredient I put in. It was used to make the most flippin awesome burgers I have ever eaten. They were.. And be prepared for the ultimate sacrilage here... the best burgers ever, even better than In and Out burgers. Of course now we can surely expect the lightning to strike me down. Bunnies are cute. Ours is pretty potty trained so we let him run around outside of his cage. Though he hasn't been eating anywhere near as much recently. I hope nothing is amiss. The lady friend and I are to finally watch the Hudsucker proxy. We watched the Big lebowski last night. I stand by my earlier evaluation. It's ok, not great. It's really messed up. On a different note, it is up there with South Park in my mind as movie with the most profanity. Maybe we'll watch Dirty jobs first, maybe not. This new season hasn't riveted me like the last one did. Leaning back toward the more clay like land. I can get more than 2 times the land for 75% of the price. Current Mood: mecca lecca hi mecca hiney ho Current Music: tv Tags: cooking land

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January 24th, 2006

07:42 pm - work is going well. I am implementing a rich text editor into our client side form generator. It's all kinds of slick and I am most proud of it. I am seriously leaning toward making an offer on the property. We both are. A couple more things left to look into and I think I will. Wnet out there again tonight in the dark just to check it out again. Yep, I sure felt creepy walking around a dark lot at night in the boonies. I kept imagining some deranged madman jumping out and killing me and stealing my car. Need to clean my office, get my feng and my shui together so I actually work instead of goof off in here. Trying to update my LJ is part of the nose to the grindstone. (I know it doesn't seem like it should be, but it's one of the many "wants" I don't pursue, so I must motivate my lazy butt to pursue my wants until inertia breaks me free, or habits form. I made a homemade black bean dip that I think is most definately the bees knees. In fact, I shall be eating it soon. I had more than my share of my homemade beans and weenies. I somehow made far more quarts of the stuff than anticipated. all in all 2 pounds of beans(dry weight), 2 pounds of hot dogs, 2 big cans of tomato puree. It's good, but you can only eat so much before it's enough for the day. I broke so much wind sailboats could have used me to power them across the Atlantic. Oh yeah, my sister is getting to be pretty good with the graphics and whatnot. The best part is I still have a good 6 free pictures I can get from her before I have used up my birthday gift from 3 years ago. Current Mood: content Current Music: Henry Kissinger (Monty Python) Tags: land cooking

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January 21st, 2006

11:18 pm so LJ has a js flaw, cookies stink, sessions are insecure. Many people state that session cookies are horrid ways of ensuring that a user has been authenticated. However, barring the sending of username and password every time what method is supposed to be better? looked at the 1.6 acre plots today. That's bigger than I thought it was, but these plots were oddly shaped, had lots of standing water, and were right at an intersection of two major roads. The realto said it was a bad intersection for accidents too, but I wonder if that was just because she wanted me to go for the 40,000 dollar property instead of the 22,000 dollar property. I love the 4 acres 40k property, even better than the 7acre 35k property. it's twaice as much per acre, but it's wide.. the 7acre is long but thin, I wanted a more square plot. The 40k has water and electric already so would only need septic, whereas the 7 acre would need a well too. There are cows across the street from the 4 acre so that means I can have my chickens. (I think) and the 4 acre doesn't have the deed restrictions the 7 acre has. the 4 acre also is a total of 6-7 minutes closer to work (bringing my drive down to about 39 minutes yay) it's nice, quiet, and even though it's open and nice out there, it's only 3 minutes from the nearest "civilization" (gas stations and stores) Lot further from my beloved Grocery store, and closer to the bad one, but I'll live. Now to make sure it perks, and to figure out what to do next. I like it, she likes it, matthew likes it. Maybe it's time to have the grandparents and whatnot look at it. I love my food dehydrator, but would strongly advise against eating too much dried fruit. A bag of cranberries, even dehydrated, has a lot of punch. When dehydrated you also tend to be able to eat more of them. One bag of berries later it's a bad time. To make it worse, as I desperately desired to return home after it hit, the person in front of me was doing 10 under. arg. arg! I say. We have the Big Lebowski and the Hudsucker proxy to watch this weekend. I love netflix. Yay. I think I am going to go play some W:ET. have fun y'all. (oh yeah, I am currently trying to find a good place to get a black cowboy hat and boots. yeeha! y'all) Current Mood: chipper Current Music: BBC world news Tags: land

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January 20th, 2006

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November 10th, 2005

09:41 pm So I am building a computer for my sister. First one I purchased via Ebay: never showed up, Still waiting on the Ebay sure protect thing to happen. That process is long and really makes me feel that ebay doesn't care that much. Their email after the 10 day waiting period said "sometime in the next 30 days we'll get in touch with you." Jimminy Cricket people! ok, computer number #2 purchased through Ebay, was awesome and all for what it was, but it was not really super, and by this time I felt guilty because of the delays in giving the gift so I felt I needed to get something better. Computer #3 Awesome computer, ordered the parts from Newegg, they sent the pieces in three separate packages. package 1: case; sweet and purdy. package 2: half of the memory, the thumbdrive and a few little odds and ends; sweet. package 3: the bulk of the innards, cpu mb, some more memory, and misc junk........ UPS says it was delivered but.......................... IT NEVER SHOWED UP HERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I don't think it was insured, I didn't see it on anyone elses porch, the neighbors did say the UPS truck was in the area at that time, but much further down the street. Not sure what to do. I hope that whoever actually got it is honest and brings it here, or that UPS has it and misreported a delivery or something. I will be calling UPS in the morning, but other than that I don't know what to do. This flipping computer is driving me batty. If I get screwed on this I am just going to pay dell to ship it to her directly. I am so upset. And .NET is driving me batty at work. oi. Current Mood: aggravated, but this is cuter Current Music: Rachel watching too fast too furious in the other room

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August 14th, 2005

08:38 am - well so ends the single portion of my life Hopefully for good. I leave this house in an hour to go get bob and head to the wedding. A quick change into a tux for all the men and we'll be good to go. There shall be video and pictures aplenty. I was planning to do a live webcast too, but there's too much to do for me to be able to devote time to that, and my laptop is my baby so I can't let anyone else do it. I love technology, but not as much as Rachel you see, but still I love technology, always and forever. (Hopefully that wasn't so mangled that at least some of you get it) I shall be married by 2:30 pm ET should all go according to plan, then it's off to the hotel so that we can catch our 6am flight to Miami. From there it's a five day cruise in the penthouse suite (or whatever the nautical equivalent of a penthouse is (Playboy? badum bum)). The cruise will travel in the Carribean from miami to Grand CAyman to Ocho Rios (Jamaica) and back to miami. Then we will spend one night in miami to have fun in the famed Miami and then return home so that I can get back to work and she can unwind in time for school. It would have been neat to Have Matt be able to come, but he has decided spending time with his lady is more important. harumph ;) I am planning to update more when I get back, as soon as I get my desktop computer set back up. I don't like typing large quantities of text on this laptop keyboard. I love it very much, but it hurts my hands. I like fullsize keyboards. Cindy is being really pleasant and I am quite pleased. I know she doesn't care for me and that makes me feel odd as she treats me nicely though. I'll live, peace and harmony is all I am seeking at this point by jove. I am also sad my mom can't come, that she chose not to be the bigger human, and because of her choise robbed my of the ability to have Scott or Sas here either. I don't know, I'd say I don't understand her hate of my father, how he could possibly have been that bad. But to hear some people talk I am some horrid ogre, things I know happened one way are turned into another and over time those things that didn't happen that way have just built up such anger. It's sad that we couldn't be friends because of it. It's sad that my mom couldn't play civil. Heck, even Cindy is playing civil. I have one person I am going there for today, only one person to make happy. I don't care if the 60 people there on her side, or the 10 on mine can't hear, or don't have the best view, or where they sit or what they wear or any other thing, It is Rachel and I and no one else, when all is said and done, that's the only thing that matters to me today. Her and myself. The rest of the world can bloody well sod off if they try to keep me from having that. (Look, a British type swear. yay me) And lastly, I do not fear him, for I know him to be a reasonable man, and as such I am in no need of fear. Just because you have a romp in the hay across from someone's house I am sure won't make him feel the need to take me down. I actually had to speed way up to get next to him, and rolled down the window so that I could see him. He waved, and I waved back. At that point I slowed back down to the speed limit because as you well know, I do not like Speeding! Not unless I am on a freeway/tollway/or highway anyway. Current Mood: loved Current Music: It will be Here comes the bride in just a few hours Tags: wedding honeymoon

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May 24th, 2005

08:31 pm - Things I have wanted to update for so long, but as is often my problem, I get so overwhelmed with all of the things that I have to say, that I end up saying nothing at all. Cancer: Insurance took FOREVER to crossover. They told me they had 45 days to get it to me, and by cracky they took almost everyone of those they could. Then Mail wasn't getting through so I had to call them to resend it twice. On the third call the lady told me she could just fax it, but I had 60 days to say yay or nay, but 10 of those were already gone. Anyway, went to a surgeon, he said the scar was too big, and there was too much potential for problems. He sent me to a specialist, who I will be seeing this Friday at 10:15 am. Job: Still love it. Working with client side javascript more than I ever have in my life, and I like it. I have had to learn all kinds of optimization techniques to get full scale applications working at snappy speeds when implemented in Javascript. I like one of the people I work with quite a bit. He's fun and I think could be a non work friend someday maybe. For the first time in years I find myself swapping cds at work. It's nice. Some of my best friends have been work friends... Speaking of work Friends: I hadn't heard from one of my best friends for over 2 months now. I have talked to his wife twice and asked him to call and he didn't. I suck at staying in touch so I understand (heck, some of you on lj haven't heard from me in so many months it's not funny) Anyhoo, I found out today, my friend of 8.5 years (1/3 of my life) has left IT and is now selling used cars. This shook my world. I have long experienced change, I moved all over the place as a kid and then as an adult. I think that change was my norm, so it was ok. But He was always in IT, always smarter and more experienced, but now he's something else. The truth of nearly nine years isn't anymore. See, my stability comes from my friends and my car and my home. Now I live with my fiance and often come home to find everything moved, my car broke recently and now I have a new one, and one of the very few friends (less than 5 I'd say) that I still am in any sort of contact with is not who I recall. My world, it be shattering. It was like when I moved back to Colorado from LA and all my friends moved, or were moving. It ruined Colorado for me. *sigh* Car: Dodge Stratus. I have decided I really like how dodge cars (the intrepid and the Stratus so far) handle. Comfy, roomy, and sporty. Wedding: Wedding plans go well, invitations are being printed, wedding favors purchased, flowers signed for, cake designed. so on so on so on. Oi, weddings are a flippin bear. And for some reason the cheap honeymoons don't really apeal to the ladies. I feel sick, I am going to finish this up and go watch the 10th Kingdom. Any questions post them here. I promise I will respond ASAP. I want to get back in touch with my friends and this is step 1. Oh, and here's a poem I wrote when I moved back to Colorado, it kinda reflects my mood of then and now. Looking back on what once was harsh memories now covered in golden fuzz Time marched on, left our pasts behind Try as we might, life won't rewind. Memories of things we did when we were but a little kid things now impossible yet still we yearn we can't go back, the past had a turn That lovely small city fair the crisp smell of the mountain air all dear friends gathered close that's nostalgia, a healthy dose Maybe it wasn't what now we see perhaps the fondness is only memory the edges blurred, the details bent yet knowing this, my desire does not dent. Those were the simple days we say when we were a child and could romp and play now life's stresses get us down give us worries, make us frown Oh for those younger days now long past oh for those happy days gone by so fast Time has but a forward track Try as we might, we can never go back Current Mood: indescribable Current Music: House on Fox that Rachel is Watching

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February 7th, 2005

06:46 pm - Yay it's Cancer The night after my last post I started bleeding out of the wound so profusely that it soaked through the bandage, into my pillow and bed and left a pool. It was trying to coagulate huge gobs of hard jello blood were under the bandage but it wouldn't stop. I called the nurse the next day and asked what to do. She told me my doctor was on vacation but that since I had managed to stop the bleeding it was ok. I asked if the cyst had been cancerous and she told me no. Well the woman lied! My follow up appointment was today and the doctor told me I have squamous cell carcinoma. I need to get another surgery in a few weeks (he wants the existing wound to heal a bit more before he removes it all. Why I dunno) All the flesh I have grown back in the last month he wants to go back in and remove. The thing is that I am leaving here this Friday. I gave notice and they already have a new person to replace me so I can't stay on the job here to keep my insurance. COBRA here I come I guess. I have a pretty good rate, the thing says 90%+ so that's pretty good. Especially since we caught it early. I am upset she lied though. The doctor said he doesn't let the nurse give out that kind of information over the phone. Ok, I can understand that, but why not just say that instead of lie to me? sheesh. And to anyone reading this that thinks everything I do is to spite them, I didn't get it just to spite (or as you say "In spite of") you. As much as you think I am willing to make myself suffer to one up you, I had nothing to do with this. Current Mood: gloomy Current Music: Mall music

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January 17th, 2005

08:12 pm - Prepare for heart attacks, because Nathan is updating his journal finally. It seems the last time I posted was (oh my bippy I hadn't realized it was that long ago) back in September. I shall now super summarize: sometimes some people just make me go "Huh?" I am learning Reporting Services at work and love it muchly. I had surgery last Tuesday to have a cyst removed. Still haven't heard if it was cancerous or not. I'd kinda wish for a rush on that test you know. I am not horribly concerned that it is, but just to get any niggling doubt removed would be nice. (This next bit may not be for the squeamish) He didn't want to close the wound back up because it would risk forming another pocket if he had missed any of it. (though I had a 6 inch long, by roughly 1inch deep oval shaped wound (actually it's shaped like a vertical version of a mouth that is open) that is about 2-3 inches wide at it's widest point. I am supposed to (twice daily) pull the gauze out of the wound and stuff more into the hole in my body. No antibiotics were presribed and none are being applied to the wound so I can't help but wonder how he expects it not to get infected. I hadn't put the gauze in far enough down so it had come out and the two sides had all night to grow together. I was too big a wuss to pull them apart so I left it like that all day too. But that night, knowing it was best to not let it heal together (he wants it to fill from the bottom up) I pulled the two sides apart. That was an owie to be sure. But oddly didn't hert anywhere near I would have thought. Anyway, on the infection front, I smell the gauze every time I change it and it still smells fresh and clean, no sign of infectious smell. Yay. I have noticed a much greater energy level since it was removed, but that could be because I am sleeping better since Rachel is on vacation and I can't stay up late talking to her. Ok, end the gross stuff. I am a very happy Nawft. I am getting stuff done that I need to. I am still doing quite well with my ladyfriend, in fact though I still use lady friend (I got used to it) she's really more of what one could call a fiance. At least if one was pedantic and assumed that just because one person asks another to marry them and they do that they are now fiances. Call me a pedant then. Woohoo! My cell phone for some reason only works with a headset in it now. The sprint people tell me they have to replace it to fix it so I will just use my headset everywhere. My car was acting choppy, stalling almost at stoplights and responding in a chokey sluggish manner. I took it to the mechanic and they told me it would be 837 to fix it. I needed new plugs, new ignition coil, new ignition wires, and a new head valve gasket. (The gasket they told me needed to be fixed to get it running right, but that gasket leak has been there for two years, and was first noticed about 2 months after I had it replaced so I didn't feel the need to fix it again. as long as I check the oil frequently I am fine. Anyway, I took it to another mechanic that most of my family uses and he did it all (including parts) (that includes head gasket) for $320. it is most pleasing. Anyway, I am getting hungry so I think I shall be off to eat something. I'd just like to cap this with again commenting that sometimes some people confuse me greatly. We often say one thing and mean something completely different. Oi. We can both be speaking English, but the message I get from the words doesn't quite jive with the actions. odd. (I am not talking about Rachel thankfully enough. I manage to understand her a good 95% of the time I'd wager) (Nathan loves the ladies that say what they mean. Though sometimes it takes a while to realize that with that particular person there is no hidden sub meaning. Of course that makes it all the harder. Oi. Glad I shall not have to look again) Current Mood: loved Current Music: Smoke Gets in your eyes. The Platters

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September 10th, 2004

04:24 pm - here we go ...again... on my own I dunno, that lyric was in my head hush. I am at the airport again. Well on my way to a free trip 75% there by the time I get back actually. This is only a short visit, but work is getting icky and it's going to be getting worse and worse. I fear it may be time to look elsewhere if it gets worse. A friend of mine is leaving and his workload will now be my workload. Add to that the fact that my workload was already climbing for a project due by the end of the month. It was scheduled to take 4 weeks at 40 hours a week to complete. I started last monday, had this monday off, and spent 20 hours today and yesterday assembling data for a super high priority report that came from nowhere but was required to songlehandedly save the company. geck. This keyboard thing at the airport is most annoying. geck I say yet again. So, if I am so busy how can I spare the time to fly? Well, I had the ticket for a while, and I refuse to let my job eat my life. People say I do, but I don't and I won't. It's not worth it. I am for the moment still a contractor so I cn just tell them that I bill for all my hours and the price will certainly back them up off of me. I don't think we have any real plans for this weekend, but I am just looking forward to relaxing with Rachel, Will, Ashley, and Matthew. I am a touch worried, I spoke to Rachel when she was about to head to school, but now I am told she never showed up. Color me a pessimist, but I am fearing that I will land in Rochester to bad news... but hey, that means when I get there and everything is ok that I'll feel so relieved. *Crosses fingers* I have to go find something to drink, I have been coughing all day after I inhaled bug fogger fumes for too long. And a few other icky symptoms. I hope I didn't poison myself. that'd suck. Current Mood: Poisoned Current Music: airport babble

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